I miss innocents.

I havent been doing anything i've wanted to,
I rarely take pictures... I hardly cook. Things I really love doing.


My priorities are wrong.


I need to fix this.

Been a long time

CIAO!

here's an update:

I attend UVU. Major: Art Education
work-aholic (not by choice)
girlfriend (by choice) 

Lately into yoga and cooking

life goals: 

• Fashion- whether its shopping for someone else or display windows.
• Traveling, internship abroad.
• Cooking classes.
• Yoga instructor
• Mom
• Wife
• Photography teacher.
• Photographer.

My dear boy is going to serve an LDS mission and i'm supporting him every step of the way.

Goals:
save a life.

annnn this is what's newww:

I don't blog anymore.... i'm sorry.

In a Good Place

In a really good place.

I'm Happy. Genuinely happy. The kind of real happy where you notice when you're driving in your car, and it hits you--nothing is wrong.
Everything is beautiful.

I'm in a good place mentally. I love school.
I'm in a good place emotionally. I'm in love i'm single and i'm confident.
I'm almost there spiritually. I Love the Lord. If I center myself around him nothing can harm me.
I'm almost there physically! I'm pretty fit! just need to keep it up!

I'm not saying the world is a good place. Not by any means. But you can make your life a good place. By surrounding yourself with good things and good people. Being closer to your family. Doing service for other. these things cause you great joy.

I'm aware the world is corrupt and savage. I've seen it, I've been around it.
Society has no morals.
This doesn't mean though that we as people living in this corrupt world have lost hope. there is always hope even in the darkest of situations.
If Hope didn't exist there would be no God. But there is a God and there is Hope and he does care about all of us.

I just needed to write this down so I never forget you can always be happy.

Rain

by Shel Silverstein

I opened my eyes
And looked up at the rain,
And it dripped in my head
And flowed into my brain,
And all that I hear as I lie in my bed
Is the slishity-slosh of the rain in my head.

I step very softly,
I walk very slow,
I can't do a handstand--
I might overflow,
So pardon the wild crazy thing I just said--
I'm just not the same since there's rain in my head.

real friends.

took me awhile to remember.


you don't have to do anything.

tweeting.
texting.
sleeping.

just their company.

all being in the same room is nice.

i love Jordan and Luke. my very sweet, very close friends.

I love you both very much. and really value your friendship.

some of us were born on the fence; some in the dark and some in the light.

some radiate light and some give off the ora of shadows.

some smile lifeless.

some touch their lips in thought.

some age with wisdom others age forgetful----

summer nights.

coming home.
2am.
singing.
silly dancining.
off key--wrong tone.
love.

love.

surounds you. love for the people next to you.
love for the street.
your town.
love for his smile.
her laugh.

his eyes.

her way of life loving.

you sit there, in the passenger seat, staring--at the lights, the road, the way his cheek bones are perfectly shaped to his face.

you think of how much you love these people.

sitting around listening to wy sing silly songs of us friends.
the way his looks ease my stare ---the elegant way his caller bones meet his broad shoulders.
very handsome.


i love these people.